So … I am finally near to completely recovering from whatever bug i got. I’m not sure what I had, but it sure was a pain. Now it’s time to get back on track. However, I am a little lost. Once again, I am hit with the same road block that I have faced … where am I? where do I want to go? what do I want to do?
Obstacle #1: Long-term planning - what a damn annoying pain. Because of good old long-term planning, I am constantly reminded of the fact that I have to make sure that I will have a roof over my head in a couple years. What a bugger…
Obstacle #2: Freedom vs. Career-building. Perhaps I can consider this one of my weaknesses or strengths? Some say you must pay your dues before actually being able to do what you truly want to do. Others say its how you build and gain experience. Is it impatience that is causing some of my frustration and need to break free? Is it simply the way of an inexperienced 20-something-year-old? Or is it truly an internal demand for the freedom to achieve a goal or objective?
Obstacle #3: Generalist or Specialist? I guess it is one of my greatest accomplishments and downfalls, both at the same time. My ability to be flexible and adaptive makes me a great generalist, I find unconventional ways to do things and utilize a combination of different skills to attain my objective. I have to learn on the spot on how to do some things but once I figure it out, everything is quick and easy. However, a specialist could probably do that from the start with no problems. There are a lot of things I am interested in and I just never stop learning. However, should I be focusing on one thing?
So despite these obstacles, I continue to putter along. I don’t know what will happen, but I do know that in the future, I need to focus my attention on Wandering Enterprises. Perhaps this 25-year-old is young, very likely inexperienced and naive about the world … but if there’s three things I definitely have on my side, it is a dream, a belief and the people who support me. Already… the foundation is set, now we just have to see how much time it takes to lay the bricks.
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Very excited I am. As a growing young man (not that I still am not growing or young, just not as much so), I used to read a number of Dragonlance books. Now … don’t laugh … I am not a huge fan of Advanced Dungeons and Dragons or something … I merely read the first book by Margaret Weis and Tracy Hickman who introduced the world to Dragonlance with a great family of characters. Dragons of Autumn Twilight is the title of the book and it is what Dragonlance fans everywhere will be pleased to hear. A movie is coming out! Take a look at this website!
Weeeeee!
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yup… i’m sick… ugh…again! This is the second summer I’ve been sick! Phooey…
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I am encountering an overload point — While I used to think it wasn’t possible, perhaps it is due to the fact that now I have a fulltime job. Prior to that I was working a flexible schedule and thus, was capable of finishing off whatever project I had based on priority. Unfortunately, with a fulltime job … it means I am required to focus my attentions on stuff at hand. My frustrations however, are based around the resources I must work with:
- A computer that is insanely slow (256 megs of RAM people!) and a mouse that chooses to declare its independence every 5 minutes. This makes life annoying and graphic design near to impossible. A monitor screen that would probably detiorate faster than the halflife of a carbon atom that is on fire — and of course a resolution and refresh rate that makes Flickr sound like heaven for the eyes.
- No HTML or graphic design programs aside from a copy of Photoshop 7 on a MAC. This means I must depend on open source programs such as The GIMP and Inkscape … which are great programs, but still have ways to go and ultimately I am dependent on programs from Adobe and Macromedia (which are the same company now in case you didn’t know)
- I actually contemplate buying the software myself and a laptop!… sad sad sad!
- Bibliographic databases and online retailers or wholesalers – a wonderful idea, poorly implemented across the world. I look forward to learning more about this ONIX stuff. But wow… is it a mess! XML may be all the rage, but there sure are a lot of standards to be set properly.
- And of course … the time I spend commuting. If it is one thing I dislike immensely about my current lifestyle, it is the fact that I have to lose sleep and spend about 3 to 4 hours of the day commuting. I seriously wish they’d have that teleporter stuff operational from Star Trek. That… or give me a helicopter and two helipads.
- I get home from work, eat dinner and then I have two hours of
play more work to do because I believe in helping people and also in the projects I am pushing forward on. And then I hit the hay!
But aside from all of those frustrations, I cannot say enough great things about the people I work with who are an inspiring bunch. If only we had the resources. One day, I will bring in greater resources. One way or another.
If I disappear, do not be surprised and do not fear anything. I made a few promises to some people and I intend on keeping them. All that is left in the end is dust in the wind and many many memories. It is these pieces of time and history that carry a portion of a story. For more information, please read again, and again, and again…
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Well… this is a little late…but yes…yesterday was Canada’s 139th birthday! It is a little odd to me that Confederation took place in 1867 a mere few days before Americans celebrate Independence Day on July 4th. I wonder if that was purposeful or was there every intention of doing that? Regardless, it is fascinating to review the past of Canada. Perhaps to the many unfortunate people under the obsession over European history (and of course I don’t mean that in any disrespect…), the fact that we are a very young country makes studying our history so exciting. The fact that we technically free from the bonds of thousands of years of nation-like history means we have the freedom and flexibility to set our own course. Sure, all Canadians have a different background and have family roots drawing upon a great history, however it is not too frequent that Canadians (hyphenated or non-hyphenated) can define their own identity.
Every part of our country continues to push for a permanent piece of that overall Canadian identity, but is there a rush? Not really … the running joke is that Canada’s got snow, beavers and maple syrup (and any other Canadian-ism you can think of…) but beyond that are a people who are thriving in different regions of the country and have an amazing capacity for growth. The only thing that holds us back, continues to be our lack of identity which is an insecurity of our own, but more importantly … the unwillingness to truly understand other regions and our own fear of taking a chance in truly collaborating to create better policies for all Canadians. Of course since we’re all in an uproar over the fact that we either are giving too much money to another region or we’re not receiving enough … we forget the bigger picture. At the same time, politicians end up following our example in order to appease the electorate. While I don’t speak much about my previous work, my brief stint at the Ministry of Intergovernmental Affairs and my continual study of intergovernmental relations in Canada (despite the fact that i’m no longer working in government) continues to indicate to me why there is a strong federal government in Canada. The Council of the Federation proposed and created by Jean Charest, Premier of Quebec, in 2003 has yet to really form a collaborative front versus the federal government. Perhaps once we can figure out our own identity, provinces and its peoples may truly work together for one another’s benefit. Then again, I am an optimist and idealist…
So where am I going with this exactly? Well, I am doing a little soul-searching of my own. I am not sure where i’m going, but that never really bothered me. What has been bothering me is my understanding of myself … I am still unsure of who I am or rather who I should be, if that is even possible. I guess I am fascinated with Canadian history because it is literally a reflection of myself, living contradictions to the extreme, nation-wide misunderstandings and constant internal conflicts. And thus continues my identity crisis!
What keeps me an optimist? an idealist? … ideas … freedom … nature … and travelling !
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